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I'm A Diva
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I'm A Diva
09 August 2009 @ 01:36 am
So, I had this friend back in high school that was a year behind me, and when she graduated, she up and moved to Missouri without telling any of us and I felt betrayed. But I got over it, and kept in touch, watched through facebook as she went through her pregnancy and her wedding, because I couldn't be a part of either.

When she moved back, I made a point to get back in touch, and I hung out with her over the Christmas break, when we were finally back in the same city for the first time in four years. I got to meet her son, and catch up and it was great, and I thought maybe we'd be on the same page.

I just found out that she just had a second child. Which meant when we hung out, she had to know she was pregnant, and she never told me. And disappeared off the face off the earth. Once again, I found out through facebook, even though she has my number and doesn't even live A MILE away from my house.

Guess what. I feel even more betrayed this time around.

This might turn into the whole Michelle issue again. This is the second friend that got pregnant and never told me until it was somehow obvious. I gave up on Michelle when she didn't invite me to her baby shower. (This entry will be made public, so she can see it and understand that she had hurt me for the last time).

I don't even know what to think. I feel like giving up on EVERYONE I knew in HS. (Besides Em, because she's incredible)

Is this what is going to happen five years from now with all my college friends and fraternity brothers?

I really hate this stage of my life.
I'm A Diva
01 April 2009 @ 08:00 pm
Title: Staking A Claim
Author: Silencing
Rating: PG
Characters/Pairing: Ten/Rose
Summary: The Doctor gets possessive
A/N: Officially, this is my first fic. It was just a random idea I had while grabbing a snack... Unlike other authors, I'm not going to ask you to be nice, please tell me what you really think! I'm completely open to criticism and praise, all feedback is loved and appreciated. A big thanks to Rogue for the beta, even if it wasn't what I was supposed to be working on, I love ya darlin!

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I'm A Diva
01 February 2009 @ 10:40 pm
There was a time before the dimension cannon (which now that she thought about it, was a completely inappropriate name. It wasn't so much a cannon as a big yellow button which must certainly be pressed, as many times at it took to get her back to where she belonged) that Rose hadn't felt human. Hadn't felt anything really.

It had taken her a month originally to get past the “staring at the walls” stage of her grief, as her mother was prone to describing it these days. Rose attributed it to somewhat to her past, remembering when Mickey had lost his Gran. He'd spent days out at her grave site, staring at the patch of grass that was to eventually hold her headstone. Rose hadn't a grave or a headstone to stare at, so instead she chose to spend her days lying catatonic in bed, staring blankly into the room, reliving memories and drowning in her own tears. Jackie had finally resigned to bringing her meals to her room, watching her daughter eat without interest, wondering what it would take to bring Rose back from the edge.

In the end it had been Mickey that had gotten her to snap out of it. He'd calmly walked into her room one morning, took her by the hand and walked her downstairs to one of Pete's less conspicuous cars. He'd driven for hours that morning, landing them somewhere in the untouched countryside. It was there, away from the prying eyes of her family that she had finally allowed herself to fall apart. He had sighed both heavy with relief and resignation, glad that she was finally grieving, but knowing it was him who would be comforting her in the loss of her love. He had lowered himself to the grass next to her and gathered her in his arms, holding her steadily while she soaked his shirt with tears shed for the man she had left him for. He had always thought that it would hurt more than it did, the knowledge that she had so easily let him go for another man, but after traveling with the Doctor, he understood why Rose was drawn to him. It was this knowledge, and the maturing born of fighting for another world that allowed him to hold her through her grief.

Once her sobs had subsided, she had lied down in the grass next to her best friend and told him of the adventures he had missed, both good and bad. He in turn told her of his quest with Jake, the opening of Torchwood and their eventual transfer to the corporate world, indulging himself in the light in her eyes when she smiled and laughed during the stories, even though the moments were fleeting. Later, when the sun had begun to set, they had clambered back into the car, and Mickey had drove them home, glad to be returning with a less broken version of his friend.

Life had continued on as normal then, well as normal as it could be for a universe that had just been reintroduced to a new Jackie and Rose Tyler. They took care of the details with some small cover stories about Jackie leaving Pete to track down Rose, whom she had given up at birth. When the women had returned, the couple had renewed their vows in a rather lavish ceremony, which also served as Rose's introduction to society as the Vitex Heiress. She hated the attention of the press, but allowed her mother to indulge herself, and if anyone noticed that would often try to hide during public events, no one said anything. Soon after, Rose started up working at Torchwood, needing to do something to keep her from constantly thinking about the life she'd been expelled from. Not that working at a secret government company that dealt with alien invasions kept the memories from popping up, but it kept her busy, and didn't allow her to dwell.

It was five months later into her life in that universe, three of them that had been occupied with Torchwood and her mother's rather unexpected pregnancy, when she had that dream. The one that changed everything. Hearing the Doctor's voice, she had propelled out of bed, rudely awakened her parents and Mickey and ordered them into the parlour while she made prepared tea as a form of apology. She had sat there and explained her dream, trying to ignore her mother's skeptical look, and eventually was able to persuade them to pile into Pete's company Jeep and took off after the voice in Rose's head. It had been a tense car ride, and more than once Rose knew she had heard her mother whispering to Pete in the night, suggesting they turn around and head home before even more damage was done.

In the end, Jackie was probably right. What had transgressed on the beach had nearly torn Rose apart. She'd heard 'impossible' and never truly heard 'goodbye', much less the three words she had hoped would spill out of his mouth next. She had stood and cried, clinging to her mother, her mind refusing to accept that she would never see the love of her life again. In the end, they had guided her back to the car, and they arrived back in London with her having no idea how they had gotten there.

After that it had taken several weeks for her to become herself again, and even then her smiles never really seemed to reach her eyes. She had thrown herself recklessly into her work, and had, on more than one occasion, almost cost her team their assignment with her reckless behaviour. She refused to listen to anything anyone said, just kept going about it blindly, before the answer came to her in her sleep.

She'd been dreaming about the Doctor again, hearing one of his many rants about not listening to reason, and the relative impossibility of several situations. She hadn't shot up like a bullet, like the last time she'd had a revelation about him in a dream, just awoken that morning with a strong conviction that getting back to him was anything but impossible.

Back at Torchwood she had made the Dimension Cannon her pet project, working around the clock on it, refusing the field missions she normally lived for. Mickey stepped in, and helped her with the technology along with the scientists, but mostly only to keep an eye on her, fearing for her sanity. It had taken the rest of Jackie's pregnancy to get the technology close to working, and the delivery of Tony had put everything on hold, much to Rose's chagrin. As soon as she saw fit to leave her mother's side though, Rose was back at Torchwood's lab in Cardiff working on the Cannon, and another month saw it fit for trials. Pete tried to refuse to let her be the trial subject, but it was futile, she wouldn't let anyone else near it. She had tripped over into several other universes before finally finding the right one, and it took many more tries after that to get the right time period. The tests were tough on her physically, and they often put weeks between each run. The moment she first ran into Donna Noble though, she knew.

It hadn't been the first time Donna remembered her, not the time from the barricade, and certainly not the time from the forgotten parallel world. It had just been a simple hop over to the right universe at the right time, and she just so happened to be inside the offices of HC Clements. She had ran into Donna while the woman was presumably running paperwork from one end of the office to the next, but she had felt something in the air, something she had only ever felt around the Doctor before. Her next hop to 21st Century London had landed her on a ordinary street in Chiswick, outside a small house with a post box marked: “Noble”. Seconds after her arrival, a car had pulled into the drive, and two women stepped out arguing, and she overheard the younger woman admonished as “Donna”. Recognising her as the woman from the office, she eagerly returned to her world and researched the woman. It was about that time that the stars had started to go out, and she knew if she didn't do something soon, her world would be destroyed, leaving her no chance to get back to her old one.

That was when they had discovered the alternate timeline, and had directed Rose toward it. Four hops in one day almost destroyed Rose's nervous system, but it had been worth it. She rested for a day, and then made her second to last jump, standing at that barricade and making sure that the timelines were matched up again. Knowing everything was okay, she returned to her family, said goodbye, and prepared to make one last jump. Gun in hand, or rather slung rather ridiculously over her entire body, she held tight to the yellow button on the device and thought of the man she loved.
Current Mood: nervousnervous
I'm A Diva
10 February 2005 @ 09:20 pm
i have a new baton the works, and i'm working on designing the costume for it, instead of designing the costume for here are my two designs (and yes kristin, this is one of the ones from df)
i also apologise for the pics beforehand, they are rough, and edited in paint. i can't get psp downloaded right now. it's enough to make me cry!
design oneCollapse )

design twoCollapse )

and now for a poll, because i love abusing my paid account....see, look at my mood icon!
Poll #435478 costume

Which design do you like better

Design one
Design two
Design one front, Design two back (though i don't see how/if that could work)
Design two front, Design one back (the combination makes more sense here)
I don't care, ask your mum
Current Mood: artisticartistic....kinda
I'm A Diva
23 January 2005 @ 09:02 pm

please stop coming into my work for social calls. i'm training to be a manager and it makes me look bad.

thank you.
Current Mood: irritatedirritated
I'm A Diva
16 November 2004 @ 02:05 pm
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I'm A Diva
11 October 2004 @ 08:35 pm
something isn't right
i can feel it again
feel it again

this isn't the first time
that you left me waiting

sad excuses and false hopes high

i saw this coming
still i don't know why i let you in

i knew it all along
you're so predictable
i knew something would go wrong

but you don't have to go
or say anything at all
you're so predictable

so take your empty words
and broken promises

and all the time you stole
cause i am done with this

i could give it away
give it away

i'm doing everything i should have

and now i'm living the day
i'm making the change

i'm getting back what you gave in

i don't need anything
i knew it all along
you're so predictable
I'm A Diva
11 October 2004 @ 08:30 pm
< disclaimer > this message will contain extreme language and explosions proceed with caution < /disclaimer >

FUCK! (i warned you) i'm royally fucked. my mom is going to kill me because i have a lesson on saturday when i'm working and my clone got killed by a madman. jess won't switch with me so i'm fucked on that view because my mum'll kill me for not making my lesson.

i have two fucking labs to do tonight because i fucking procrastinate (like i'm doing now) and not doing so swell in the other classes either. dammit.

so works sucks, school sucks, baton sucks, i suck and people suck. shoot me

< /end me >
Current Mood: pissed offpissed off
I'm A Diva
10 October 2004 @ 08:51 pm
my katie's sick in my dorm. send her the best please
I'm A Diva
08 October 2004 @ 08:53 am
why the hell can't i pass a class that i took last year?
I'm A Diva
07 October 2004 @ 11:31 pm
thank you to whomever left that last comment. as odd and off as it may be...
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: my bitch is on the phone
I'm A Diva
07 October 2004 @ 09:18 pm
i hate the presidential debates.
Current Mood: frustratedfrustrated
I'm A Diva
07 October 2004 @ 08:01 am
Who will you be stuck with at end of time? by chi_a_baidh
Your name is
Your sex is
Your favorite color is
You are stuck there becauseeveryone else died due to the wrath of God
For _____ years88
With Johnny Depp. Click for pic.
He/She will think you aresexy
You willmake a coconut radio
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i don't mind...
Current Mood: boredbored
I'm A Diva
05 October 2004 @ 10:26 pm
something's wrong with me tonight and i can't put my finger on it...
I'm A Diva
04 October 2004 @ 10:17 pm
alright ladies and gents time for the online dorm tour....Collapse )
Current Mood: sillysilly
Current Music: rawr none
I'm A Diva
30 September 2004 @ 04:46 pm
krissi miscarried...
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
I'm A Diva
30 September 2004 @ 04:39 pm
i've found jason mraz to be a nice numbing drug. the more i listen to him the more i'm able to pretend that my insecurities don't exsist.

so why when i'm sitting here listening to him i still feel left out. even from work. grawr. i actually wish i could work more. damn.

need more mraz. stat. else i might lose it
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: live curbside prophet-jm
I'm A Diva
29 September 2004 @ 11:40 pm
just remember those bones they get broken

and love is not a token of affection

it's not even a real thing

it's a word

so don't you try to buy it out with a ring

cause it's a verb

to love someone

open up and let them in

just don't be afraid to set them free again
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: Jason Mraz - Common Pleasure
I'm A Diva
29 September 2004 @ 11:46 am
i've never been this happy and content in my life. thank you mraz
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: not so usual-jason mraz